Intro - My First Honesty
I’ll be very honest…
I’m scared shitless right now.
I know that sounds dramatic, but it’s the truth. In fact, it’s the very truth that pushed me to launch this blog: My own fear.
Fear of judgment.
Fear of being mocked.
Laughed at, ridiculed.
Fear of being look at as “oh, she think she doing somethin’.” (You know exactly what I mean).
Also - and this is the big one - fear of failing. I think many of us can relate to that one. But, I’m doing it anyway! Because fearing these things shouldn’t stop me from doing something that I’ve wanted to do for suuuch a long time. Sharing my honesty. My experiences. My history. My reality. But not just mine - YOURS as well, if you let me. Your honesty. Your experiences. Your history. YOUR REALITY.
It’s reaaaally hard to talk about some of these things. Truthfully, it’s hard to talk about ALL of these things. But it’s necessary. Because we’re all feeling it. We’re all experiencing it. Maybe not in the exact same way, but definitely with A LOT of similarities. And I have a really big feeling that, like myself, many of you believe that you’re alone in these feelings and experiences. But you’re not. None of use are.
We just believe that because not enough people openly share their whole honesty.
I’m not talking about the cute, fluffy, warm-and-fuzzy honesties.
I’m talking about the thick, heavy, dark, screaming, depressing, anxious, infuriating, and sometimes taboo-in-our-society honesties. Yes, I know you have them. Because I have them too. WE ALL DO. We’re human! (Or, at least, that’s what they tell us). It’s part of our human experience. But it’s the part that feels almost impossible to be able to admit aloud.
So, that’s why I’m here.
To start admitting some (hopefully, many) of them aloud. Mine. And yours, if you let me.
If you’re even the tiniest bit intrigued, stay around for a while. Revisit as often as possible. Hell, even share your thoughts and feelings with me! Because my primary goal for this blog, my ONE goal for this blog:
Is to sit with you… and be honest.